i probably disappointed her with my reaction yesterday.

i was just thinking about when the occupational therapist at the driving evaluation told me i needed to see a psychologist or other mental health professional. i forgot if i told her that i already see a psychologist once a week. i was thinking of the reason as to why she said that to me- i hadn't raised my voice or made any abrupt movements. i'm thinking that she was trying to piss me off, so what the lady more than likely wrote during my previous evaluation was true and she'd just need to fail me without doing any work.. or if she really thought i needed a psychologist (although- AS I SAID BEFORE- i was unusually calm reacting to the news.. i just remembered- i'm not sure if the fact that i haven't had any concerta (generic brand of RITALIN- which acts reverse in people with brain injuries- it gives them energy) in probably at least 2 weeks has anything to do with it- concerta acts as a pick-me-up because my brain injury tends to make me tired a lot (if not ALL) of the day). so with all that said- i think she was probably trying to push me. good thing i felt too tired to give a damn about something that was probably set in stone before i went to the appointment. as if life doesn't suck enough for me- what's one more thing i'm kept from doing? nobody obviously gives a damn- it's too inconvenient for them all. i just have more of a reason to get outta this UNOPPORTUNISTIC state- having to depend on lyft for a ride all the time (when over half the time- i end up late for my appointments because it takes so long for the driver to pick me up- regardless if i try to leave early or not). i'm going to a place with a better transportation system, so i'm not stranded depending on transportation that's not guaranteed to get me from point A to point B within a reasonable time. ADIOS!